Touched

I've been watching My Name is Kim Sam Soon on Saturdays for a few weeks now. Today's episode made me really touched. I don't know why. But it really made me very touched and yes, I cried. While I was watching it, I started to recall the life shared with my Dear for the past few years, things that he had said to me and what he had done for me. There were definitely really sweet and happy moments. And then there was anger, there was sadness, there was miscommunication, there was plenty of fun, there were fights, small ones, big ones, but yet we always make up. I complain about him, nagged at him, wanting him to be nicer to me etc etc etc. And then suddenly, while I was watching the show, I just know he is very good to me, perhaps even better than what I realised. Because if he had not taken the effort to be the one to talk to me calmly, not get mad at me, give in to me and tried to make things work out every time we quarrel, our relationship and love wouldn't have grown. It is a weird feeling that overwhelmed me and made me cry. I think it is how grateful I feel, how blessed I am to know that he has gone through difficult times with me, that actually, he cares more than he is able to show, that he worries about me and it is just my own insecurity that makes me feel that I need more. I don't know what came over me but I feel so emotional. I just talked to him on the phone but I couldn't tell him anything about what I feel at all. He sensed something was going on and pressed me to tell him what is on my mind but this little act of his made me feel all the more touched. So I decided to come here to sort of 'release' my emotions, and I don't yet again know why but it is so coincidental, I went to read Shao's updated link reflected on my blog and her post dedicated to Weiming, and it made me cry all over the nth time tonight since 2 am just now. Sigh. I just know ultra-clearly now, I really love my Dear. He makes me feel special. I have a lot to be thankful for and I am simply glad he is with me.